skinnytails

 been a few days since i've posted in this one .. i've had ups and downs mostly downs ... i met a really nice and HOT guy online day before and talked to him for HOURS last night ... turns out he's shorter (i'm 5'10 .. he's 5'5) i can handle that part Nicole Kidman/Keith Urban anyone ... the one thing that bugs me is he's 137 lbs ... I'm WAY more than that ... I'm starting a 40 hr fast (58 minutes ago) so hopefully i can get some more of this fat off me before i meet him Saturday 

Height: 70 in
Cw: 166 lb
HW" too much
1GW 140
2GW 130
UGW 120

 I'm not sure how I feel today ... I called my dad to tell him happy pappy day ... and i made some cinnamon rolls for my boys for breakfast .. i let myself smell them and even lick my fingers (about 10 cal). i've been doing laundry and dishes and all around cleaning.  i'm in just a really bad modd.  my "boyfriend" texted me last night waking me up.  He doesn't know that night time is my worst.  I can keep active during the day, but it seems as soon as the sung goes down and the boys go to sleep i go on binging autopilot ... but i think i did well ... i had a few nerds (160 cal) but i did go back to sleep insead of working them off ... tonight we have a father's day cook out .. it's at my aunt's house and it's going to be a huge group of people .. which is good considering no one is going to be paying attention to me or if i eat or not ... i'm thinking not ... we'll see ... i need to find a way to get out of my head

dinner totally sucked .. I made "enchilada pie" and ended up eating more than i wanted .. just because mom was sitting right there.  so i'll say i had about 500 cals with that ... and i had a few bites of a potato earlier (full one is 110 cal)  so today was a total of 610 cal ... i did however workout today and burned about 400 cal ... so i think after i put the boys to bed i'll break out my eliptical and do another hour and a few hundred crunches with a 5 lb weight ... should burn the rest off .... i feel like i should be MOOING!!! 

this is going to be an ongoing thingie with my weight battle.  i will try to  update it daily, with my weight, measurments and basically how i feel about all of it.  
  so more about me.  I'm 26, i'm female, i'm a mother an exwife a sister a daughter a friend ... in other words i'm human.  so for background and what not I'm 5'10 inches or 70 cm and at the start of this blog i weigh 168.2 lbs size 10 pants.  My goal is to get to 145 and maybe a 6 in pants.  so far today i've not had anything to eat ... we'll see what happens at dinner time